Wins On The Vital Fundamentals One
of Life and Processing Course
Written while in the Yukon on July 17, 2001:
Less than two weeks ago I returned home from the Ranch, North of Dallas,
after a couple weeks stint on the VF1 (Vital Fundamentals One of Life
and Processing) Course. My journey home will probably remain forever
etched in my mind (I posted an account of it here) as I was so high.
That was the success story I always wanted to write.
Someone asked me then to keep them posted on my progress. More to the point I expect, is the unasked question "will it last?"
Well, I for one am especially interested in any outcomes. :)
Here is an update. I will let you draw your own conclusions.
The Friday I arrived home the call came to go to the Yukon. Though not unanticipated, it came sooner than I had expected. Suddenly, things are going into motion.
Five days later I am headed up the Alaska Highway on a 1200 mile journey in a new pickup truck and trailer -- a route I have covered many times previously but with different eyes.
What is the purpose in my going?
I have some obligations to fulfill.
I am transporting the vehicle and trailer full of material to a good friend in the Yukon, but I find myself realizing I am also wanting to obtain closure with some (notably an ex-girlfriend) and consolidation with others. My Dallas experience is serving as a catalyst for something much bigger than what is immediately apparent, it seems.
And as I drive, I think, and look -- going over in my mind the nature of my experiences over the past few weeks and since arriving home, examining their significances, their ramifications -- looking at how I am, at how differently I now think and view things.
I find I am quite constantly composing in my head, putting my thoughts into words in my mind. I wake up from my sleep doing this. I do it while eating, walking about, riding, driving. There is so much to communicate, so much I want to say. I can see profundity in all things, be they small and detailed, or massive in scope. There is a certain flux to the Universe as if it is a living entity in itself, and the shifting of perspective from viewing the tiny to viewing the huge, and back again, feels effortless and natural.
I can see things with a clarity of thought that still awes me. The act of writing down what I am experiencing, attempting to somehow encapsulate the experience, to define it, express and convey it has become vitally important to me. It is no effort to write. It is more a joy and a thrill to see my thoughts take on a form of their own, where I no longer see the words but instead, the picture they create.
The process, the activity, the crafting of words is a magical thing to me and this urge, the drive to communicate that which I see and feel has become almost a passion.
It is the joy of expression, of understanding.
It's fascinating to me how little symbols on paper can convey such detailed concepts so easily and tidily. And curiously, the ease with which this happens appears directly related to the degree of clarity with which I see things. And it is self-perpetuating and self-sustaining. That is, clarity of thought begets clarity of expression, and clarity of expression begets further clarity of thought. I simply view, perceive and describe what it is I see. I can write now, because I can see!
I am becoming a chronicler of my own life and life experiences. And it is as if once I decided to be that, my life is becoming a life more worth chronicling.
I am LOOKING at things, looking at my life, my interconnectedness with others. I see people less as their identities and more as them -- spiritual beings, experiencing life through or as their identities. I can see their experience, feel their pain, their loss, without making less of it, but without also losing sight of the bigger picture.
I feel I have been given a taste of the Wisdom Of The Sages.
And the words keep coming and coming.
I see myself in the role of a teacher now in life but it is so much more than that. I want my life to be an embodiment of what could be. I want others to see, to get a glimpse too of my life --- how it was , how it has changed and how it is changing, as it happens, and how it is possible to change. I want to craft my life as I craft words, to play with life, to fling myself into experiences as I fling words down on paper -- with abandon. So I can go back and flesh things out, sort things out, move bits and pieces here and there, make things tidy and concise, neat (or not), inspired, clear, whole, comprehensive and comprehendible. I want my life to be a life!
I want the courage to have the story be detailed, honest, clear, real and inspiring in and of itself, free of embellishment, coercion, lies, or untruth.
What happened to me at the Ranch? How did this state happen, how did it come to be?
I arrived there as a very solid, quiet, and stoically -- suffering soul and departed in an ascended state. All in the space of two weeks. I have done many courses in many fields with great gains. Or apparently so. But this is a state. My wins are profound, real and awesome. PLUS, they have remained with me. Something fundamental has been breached.
I have had time to reflect on this now, of course.
I can see what Alan means when he says the key command used in presence is really asking the person "What are you stuck in?". It took me a good full two weeks to get through that first process. I was stuck in so many different things. Each time we would do this, another area would raise its head to be handled. But the difference was this time we would handle those areas. It became a bleeding-off process, a dissipating of charged areas and incidents, bit by bit, piece by piece.
I can really see how the process results in a restoration of life force particles. To summarize my previous condition, I was an individual with too many life force particles tied up in previous losses, abuse, misadventures, etc, etc. There was simply not enough left for me to experience life, to enjoy life. So it was not a question of some one thing of major significance that once found would suddenly and magically result in some major improvement.
No, it was a multiplicity of things, charge from so many different sources and areas. Just cumulative charge, beneath which lay buried -- "the answers". And in some cases there were no "answers" -- just charge. But charge it was. One can't live or see when buried in charge. Dissipation of charge led to restoration of life force, led to realizations.
Simplicity.
John
And it was particularly gratifying to see John, an old time processor, with
many thousands of hours under his belt helping others in another practice,
really getting answers that gave him what he has sought for so long.
Great to see.
There is something else that happened during the last VF1 Course, and it did
not happen with any fanfare or great notice. It sort of slipped into one of
Alan's lectures, almost in passing; and indeed, some in attendance might
even have missed it for I did not hear any in attendance later mention it.
But it is something of phenomenal importance and moment.
I later checked it with Alan to sure I heard it correctly, and it is so, he
said what I am about to tell you.
In passing, as a simple statement of fact and accomplishment Alan said in
one of his lectures that with the developing of the explicit charge handling
tech he has now finished the job of research. The final needed answers have
been found.
For me, having been on the research line and lived the continuing
developments for near five decades, I see this as a tremendous, phenomenal
accomplishment. An occasion of huge, huge moment.
And one for which Alan is due a huge thank you, and congrats.
I would say, also, that something else is appropriate . . . and this from us
to ourselves and each other.
The job of tech development has been done. The final needed answers are in
hand and so, at this time, on an occasion as important as this and in the
context of what this accomplish can mean to each of us, I would say this.
It is time, now, to let go of the past. Time to forgive ourselves, and to
forgive each other our past little and petty disagreements and disharmonies,
and look toward what now can be achieved with the tech that has been
developed.
Your highest ideals and all worthy dreams and aspirations are now truly
attainable. Please don't let any old upsets or charge or failures to
forgive yourself or your fellows get in the way of that attainment.
The future is too rosy and wonderful, now we have this tech, to allow any
old grief to stand in the way.
Some months ago, many of you exchanged emails on the wisdom of forgiveness
... of selves and of our fellows. Now is a very, very appropriate time to
apply those wise precepts, and to take the steps necessary to attaining your
ideals and dreams and aspirations.
Rekindle your dream of spiritual restoration and again fully pursue it.
The tech is now truly available. Having experienced it, I can promise you
it is so.
Roger
Date: Fri Jul 20 20:21:42 EDT
2001
From:
Roger Boswarva
Subject -- Catching Up
The first thing to say is, how wonderful it was reading the spectacular wins
of the folk at the VF1 (Vital Fundamentals Of Life And Processing)
Course over the last several weeks; particularly the
first time attendees: John, Ramaa, etc.
Recently I processed someone I hadn’t
worked with in awhile and I ran him on VF1 (Vital Fundamentals One) for
the first time. We both had great wins and I want to share two of mine
here.